Stairway to my Heart

What stable job can I find with a lousy N level cert? Or a failed O level cert?

I don't wish to go courses that I am not interested in it and regret. 

Maybe I should just stop worrying and make suitable plan as time goes by. Going down ite alone tomorrow morning then off to work (:

Till here. 

Love. 

Just started playing Dota and got really hooked. Is just like Age of Empire to me. Gonna learn more about the game! Neh started L4D 2 too. 

You just called but because we don't communicate in a way of expressing our care and concern out. I just don't have the courage to wish you a happy birthday even I am not looking at you. I am not sure if you know that I really love you, But I really do. Think back of the time when we're still living together making you angry & sad is what I did everyday in the past but because now we're apart it make me realize how much I actually needed you and how much I want to show you my love. When I was still a little girl you always left me with the baby sitter until you realize it should be your responsibility to take care of me. You quited your job and started a new life with me and that is also when I decided to glue to you. I can't live without you around even if you're away till midnight I get so worked out and started crying calling you to come back because I am so scare that anything will happen to you. Moving on to teenage life, i wanted freedom more than you even for a second we talk we will end up quarreling, throwing and crying. Whenever I quarreled with you, without fail I would run into my room and cry my heart out or run away from home and cry on my way to my friend's house, until I saw my friend then I will stop my winding. Till now whenever something happened and I don't know how to handle it I will cry and call you making you really worried. People say I was a cry baby and the reason to it was because I needed my mom with me so that I would feel secures. It ended up becoming a really bad habit of mine. There are so many words that I want to express it out to make you feel better after listening but something my mind and my mouth just won't connect.

Jayden

Check out his rocker hairstyle with poker dot shirt

Knowing that I'm taking his picture,

He decided to be cute.

Lets just pretend we don't see him

& be "shocked" when he saw us

Even his eyes is small, he can still manage to act innocent by trying his best to pop his eyes. 

He can be a real attention seeker like his mimi (jk)

& he can be so cute like his jie jie. 

Mom 37th birthday is coming & Jayden 2nd birthday is on the March. 

I love the both of them so much. 

Few days ago,

& because I am officially 18. 

We decided to have some Bacardi at the middle of the night. 

Last week we went yishun for some drinking party. I simply enjoy drinking, shouting, playing and singing with the ladies. & just yesterday Neh and a few other guys decided on a mini drinking party which ended fast follow by a good deep sleep for me. 

Mom & "Dad" decided to let me off since they think I am 20 this year. I am 19 this yr and for chinese it will be a yr older so I am 20 to them which I obviously won't and never admit that. 

I decided to move in to Neh's aunt house. To be alone, I am not sure if I can ever be so brave. So we have come to a plan, a one month trial. If I am really not independent then I will have to stop being stubborn. (In fact I am not a stubborn person)  

Few hours ago I have a 10 minutes phone call with des. To my surprise, I am really a bit slow. I should update myself aqap but that will only happen after I moved house (:

I really wanna carry on writing, but I am too lazy to do so.

I must be peaceful so I'll just split out my nonsense here ;p